Little Things

“Sometimes we get so caught up in trying to accomplish something big, that we fail to notice the little things that give life its magic.” -unknown

        Young voices fill the sanctuary with abundant happiness and joyful love. I see the Holy Spirit working in each little soul as they sing sweet and sacred words. The jubilant voices belt out, “then sings my soul, My savior God, to thee, how great thou art, how great thou art.” You can’t help but smile from ear to ear. Who knew that vacation Bible school could be so magical? Little did I know; this was just the beginning of a week of “little things.”

A week of trials and hardships; a mound of what seemed to be unbearable boulders. Slowly the diamonds began to peak out. First, my monster’s voice screamed louder than usual at the beginning of the week and just when it seemed I couldn’t fight it any longer my little brother stepped in to fight for me. I breathe a breath of fresh air. One boulder broken becomes a diamond. The enemy has other plans; he picks up another boulder. I feel alone and unnoticed but I dress and head to pick up one of my sister. The night is changed. Laughter, silly pictures, full tummy’s and unexpected social media messages become the next diamond. The middle of the week blurs boulders and diamonds together. It becomes harder to dig out the jewels. Boulders become larger and I become weaker. I don’t lose hope. Family dinners and long messages break free from the rocks. Quickly the enemy throws on another boulder and another. How many can one girl hold? I wait patiently. Each night I cried out with an open heart. My Heavenly Father is the only answer. Another sister shares the kind gestures of strangers; a rock cracks, eager to become a bigger diamond. My best friend shares a video confirming our friendship. I sit happily in tears. Next, a more empowering video specifically towards my monster. We are the sky and our boulders equivalent to clouds. The fluffy, cotton candy like forms roll by. The end of the week concludes and I reflect. The diamonds have out shined the boulders.

God: 1 Enemy: 0

Jeremiah 29:13 – “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

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God sees Me!

It’s been 15 minutes since I pulled into the driveway. The rain isn’t slowing down. Another crack of thunder makes my heart jump. There’s no telling when the rain will stop. I sit and wait. All of a sudden I heard God say, “It’s time to get out. Go sit on the back porch and pray.” Me? Sit outside, in the rain, and pray? I go inside, grab a towel, my iPad, and turn on Hillsong Pandora. I can feel my heart creeping out of my chest. The thunder continues to roar and my hands shake. Alison Krauss beings to sing, “As I went down in the river to pray, studying about that good ol’ way. And who shall wear the starry crown? Good Lord show me the way!” The switch flipped and the rain stops. Alison Krauss continues to sing and I spread out on the deck, like a child about to form a snow angel. Clouds roll by and straight above me are three crosses. My heart starts to slow down and the hand tremors ease. It begins to hit me, like a ton of bricks, God was looking down at me. Flashback to the night before. I lay restless, tossing and turning, aggravated because I can’t fall asleep and overwhelmed by stress. All I can think to do is pray. God, I need to see you. Right now, in this moment, You are all I need. I have seen You in tangible ways but lately I’ve lost my “gold dust.” Staring at these three crosses, the dots start to connect. This beautiful song, my sweet friend’s blog posts, bible verses about living water, three crosses. God sees me! I’m stunned with happiness and excitement. This is a weird feeling. Moments ago I was afraid and now I’m jumping out of my skin, eager to share my spectacular experience with someone. Anyone. Scrambling to text my best friend, I’m so excited I couldn’t even gather it all up to process words. Anxious to share my experience and doubting that I wouldn’t be able to perfect my words fully, I formulate a text. Her response, “That’s beautiful! That’s so crazy how the universe works in so many odd ways. But that’s incredible!!” I wanted to soak in all that I could. This moment would be cherished forever. God showered me with “gold dust” and I am beyond thankful.

John 4:14 –  But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.

 

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Sister: a girl’s best friend

Indescribable // too extraordinary for description

This is the only way to express the past few minutes. Headed toward Lenox mall in Atlanta, sun radiating across the town, tears slowing roll off the check. The Holy Spirit is working in ways I could never imagine. Rewind to nanoseconds before. I stop at a red light. Ding! It’s a picture of Skylar at school. Not just any school but college. COLLEGE! My little sister is supposed to still be in kindergarten. MercyMe plays in the background. {Word of God speak/ would You pour down like rain/ washing my eyes to see Your majesty} I hear these words and lock them into my soul. The whole day I had been blinded by how desperately I DID need Him and He was trying to speak to me. My heart is so full that I couldn’t formulate words to cry out to God. Inside my head are jumbled thoughts and broken puzzle pieces. BUT God was already a step ahead of me. He knows all the baggage I carry and loves me unconditionally. Behind all my scars, overbearing emotions, and lost wars, God sees me as a beautiful, flawless, princess. He wiped away heartache and breathe His word into me.

Ephesians 2:4-5 “But God, being rich in mercy, because of his great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ – by grace you have been saved.”