“To be still means to empty yourself from incessant flow of thoughts and create a state of consciousness that is open and receptive.” – John Daido Loori
Two hour naps were not enough to take away the feeling. There was an emptiness. Like something was missing. The monster must be there but it’s unclear to the girl what it is saying. Sitting. Waiting. Simply being. She reaches out for resources but unsure what to grab. All of these skills yet none seem to click. Sitting indian style on the floor, it’s as if she expects something magical. Ten minutes pass. Nothing. Wrestling with the intrusive thoughts, she attempts to be mindful. It’s like a blank canvas. What is going on? Some sort of emotion is there but she feels nothing. Out of nowhere, she hears Carrie Underwood’s voice in the back of her mind. “Then sings my soul, my Saviour God, to thee…” She listens. Carrie’s elegant voice continues. “…How great thou art, how great thou art…” The young girl can sense a new presence. She tries to be in the moment, blocking out this emptiness the best she could. The hymn repeats in her head now moves to the second verse, “and when I think of God, His Son not sparing / Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in / That on the cross, my burden gladly bearing / He bled and died to take away my sin” Each word settles into her soul. She is flooded with the Holy Spirit. Fill me with Your living water, she cries out to her Father. I need You. With tears in her eyes, she thinks of what all has been taken for granted. The paved road of recovery, family and friends spanned across states but bound together by compassion and appreciation, the precious gift of being placed on this earth. What was lost, was her intimate time with the King. He was missing his daughter. She knew the enemy had intruded long enough. It was time for Him to fully step in. [The love I have for you surmounts any other unGodly thing. I wish you could see all that you’ve been given. My Son died for You. This is difficult for you to process when the monster clouds your vision. Trust in Me. I will fight for You.] Prayer was what the young girl needed. In a world full of chaos and unnecessary clutter, the enemy grabs the chance to draw you further from the King. Stick out your hand and reach for Him. Grounding herself, she rests in the arms of God.
Exodus 14:14 “The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Psalm 46:10 “He says, “Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”